The Friend Test

So yeah you may think mine is another one of those test with questions which asks about questions about myself and my likes and dislikes. Well it is nothing like that at all. All I can say is that it does test how well the participant knows me but the interesting is that is also determines the characteristics of the participants.

Bare in my mind, that the questions are referring to the participants and not me so be honest with yourself when answering. The results determines what kind of person the participant is to me as well and that determines the distance of relationship I have with them.

I do apologize for the annoying spam offers they bombard the participants with afters though.

Eat This

An interesting point which was brought up by my friend that had got me thinking.
That I should not view future relationships in the same light as my previous ones. Thought about it, and while it was meant to sound good, me being the person I am also saw some flaws in it. Especially when it comes to disparity between the two genders.

I believe in the saying 'learn from bad experiences as to not repeat those mistakes in the future'. I also believe that applies to relationships where one should avoid unnecessary problems which happened before in previous relationships. It is only natural that we would not want the bad history from repeating itself and would prefer an improvement, or better progression if you will.

Now if those of you who are reading can understand where I am coming from, I proceed by asking, why would anybody want a relationship which would be similar to previous experiences well, in terms of the bad points? An EXAMPLE would be a me having a bad history with a girl who was possessive. I would never want to be with another girl like that.

Come to think of it, maybe what my friend was trying to say is that I should not stereotype all girls to be like those I shared relationships. If this was a bigger country with more variety in types of people, I would agree. However this is otherwise, here. This land... this peninsular where parents somehow developed some unspoken system where they brainwash their kids to just do as they're told with no questions asked, where they are assured that all they have to do is get straight As in exams to guarantee a bright future followed by becoming doctors/lawyers/engineers while taking music lessons; usually piano on the side. These make up the majority of their kind. My kind. These parents breed lifeforms which seem to have been fashioned from a template. In gaming terms, it would be known as the 'cookie cutter' build.

These clones then congregate in a community welcoming everyone who are like themselves and shunning people who are different. People who have their own thoughts, people who inquire about why things are, to gain more knowledge and insight, more understanding as oppose to being comfortable with being ignorant where whatever they do not know will not hurt them.

Judging people at face value and not wanting to find out more regarding the situation and as I have mentioned before, making statements and claims with no compelling evidence/justification or even so much as a valid or relevant reason.

Perhaps they are not clones, but mere faceless figures/beings. Background casts in a scenario. The scenario of life. Maybe limitations are blessings in themselves. Like how a crippled person does not have to worry about walking or complaining of walking too far. Or how a poor person does not have to worry about being robbed because he has nothing really to lose in the first place.

Perilious Rude Irritant Careless Killjoy

Okay I have been trolling other blogs.
I think that people who blog just to gain attention from others be it sympathy or praises should just go die. I do not want to say get a life because seriously... it is a waste since there is an absence of life, why not just go die? All the way man.

Especially when they cannot spell right or construct a decent sentence free of grammatical errors. Some people try to sound deep by giving their thoughts but usually fail miserably when they say something similar to "I think [insert object] sucks because it is ugly." They do not bother explaining why they make such statements.

I guess everybody has friends whom they want to impress. I do not.
Let me play Mr. Insecure for you shallow people trying to find fault with me. You may be wondering why I blog then, if I do not expect anybody to read. On the contrary I do expect people to read. However, I am not desperate or deprived of attention. I say what is on my mind and I type/write it well. Furthermore I do not expect majority of the people to understand or agree as to what I post. Not bengs and lians anyway.

If one is to make their online presence known, one should make one's self presentable. You do not go around in public with singlet, slippers and shorts do you now? What would that say about your character? Here is a cheapshot to your face. If you find what I posted, offensive to you, well then perhaps it was intentionally meant to provoke you.

Please do not soil the internet with your presence, please do not use blogging accounts as another form of popularity contest like what some do with Friendster.com. They really fucked it up so much so that I deleted my own account[years ago] as not to be associated with those retards.

I'm Rich!

Well maybe not rich like rich people rich but hey it is an income after a long while of bumming around. Thank God for helping me through the half of the month! A pleasant surprise that my pay was more than enough to cover what I spent on my LCD monitor. Surplus! More savings!

As weird as it may sound coming from me but at this point of time I am actually looking forward to going to work. Imagine how it would be when I get a full month's wages in the future. Bwahahahaha~

Of course there is SOCSO and EPF... well EPF is for my future so hey no argument there.

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By the way, Carl's Jr. is finally open at 1 Utama, last week I think. I went there for dinner last Friday with Shawn. Their burgers are so huge they make wh****rs look like a joke. That being said, their pricing of burgers are similar to American Chili's. Nevertheless I believe it is still worth paying for once in a while. I tried the mushroom burger thingy... I forgot the name but it was the most expensive one on the menu, one bite into it and it felt... orgasmic? It felt like heaven graced my taste senses. Tears almost formed in my eyes!

I advise you guys to go try it out as soon as possible before the typical Malaysian treatment of downsizing the size and lower grade ingredients.

Not The End of The Weekend!?

Argh... I did not get any of my work done during this weekend.
Still quite tired and recovering from the first week of work and yet I have a dateline this Wednesday which means I have to complete the works by Tuesday.

I can understand why some people after coming back from work would just like to crash in front of a television and just watch stuff. Well in my case, in front of my computer and watch anime. Astonishing as it may sound, I am slowly losing my drive to play World of Warcraft, as it requires too much time. Time which I had lots to spare when I was not working. However since working, every little minute spent during my free time is worth so much.

The World Is Flat...

I sacrificed well deserved sleep this morning to head over to Low Yat with Shawn. He needed to send his computer for repairs while I was looking for a LCD monitor. Yes I have finally succumbed to getting one myself when I have been supporting CRT monitors all the while. Do not get me wrong. I still love CRTs and think that they produce better images than LCD. However there has not been much development to CRT monitors and as such, I decided to get the LCD monitor. Not just any regular LCD monitor, but a widescreen monitor. Yeah now I have more desktop space which means I can spread out more windows which reduces the need to alt+tab between programs. As for gaming especially in World of Warcraft, I get to see more of the surroundings as well as have more screen space for my mods too!

Some of you might be wondering why I blew a hole in my savings to get a monitor when I already have a perfectly fine CRT monitor. I needed something to cheer me up. I needed to reward myself for being able to get a job and enduring it. Consider it as a carrot on a stick if you will. Sad thing is, if I do get paid this month, it will be barely enough to cover what I spent on this monitor.

3rd Day of Work

I got bombarded with more work at once. Not just that, I get them after more than half my day has gone. Clients... dump me with their less than organized content and charts. I do not even understand what they are because this is business-investment-corporate related. Best of all I cannot just simply pull pictures from the internet anymore which greatly hinders my progress in image editing for the products.

What I would give to through my ordeal of the previous freelance once a month...

First Day of Work

This feels like back in internship days back in college days... I have no idea if I am doing anything right or if it is good enough... ARGH! Also... coming home from work makes me too tired and numb to do anything else. This is not good because I need to get more honor points for my paladin in World of Warcraft. She needs to get more geared to be able to perform better!

I was almost going to say, I can understand how people who work hard all day have no mood to have sex with their girl. Then again, I do not. Perhaps when I have enough of sex to be able to take it for granted, then maybe. Just maybe.

Tobira wo Akete

I finally got this song from my friend, it is the second opening theme to the anime Cardcaptor Sakura. Although I have never really followed the anime, I remembered the song so well from years ago when I was still in high school. It was so catchy. Hearing it again makes me feel nostalgic in a good way. At home when I listen to it, when nobody is watching I actually dance to it, with my upper body at least because I am sitting at the computer while listening to it.

There was a part of me that wanted to watch the series just for the heck of closure but then again I was reading more about it and it seemed to contain yaoi elements and I am not really for that kind of thing...

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Sigh tomorrow is the first day of work. Again. Hopefully it will be light and easy for the first few weeks. Hopefully I get along with the people there. Hopefully I am better than they expected!

Probably My Last Days

... of staying awake until crazy hours of the morning before I start my job coming Monday. That and I am trying to wear myself out that I can actually fall asleep around normal sleeping time. I doubt it is going to work but oh well...

Friday the 13th

Wow... has it been one year already?
A year since the beginning of what I thought was beautiful which ended as a pathetic joke. Well almost a year. It started on a Friday the 13th as well middle of last year and I cannot remember exactly when.

I hope when the sun rise, it will be eventful. At least it will keep me occupied for a while.

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Oh I got a haircut today. Getting prepared for work and all next week. Hopefully I do not start with shit loads of work straight away. Hopefully I get to complain how boring it is at work where I have nothing to do.

I thought getting a haircut would reduce the heat I feel in this blasted weather but it failed. I am still hot. The weather is still humid. Where is the rain!?

WoW Dances

World of Warcraft's different races in the game have their own set of dance steps. These dance steps have been taken from real life dance sequences. Here is a video showing where they took the dances from!

Lyrics Most Befitting

I was just hearing Bob Dylan's "Don't Think Twice It's Alright". It kind of matches my prior experiences with girls.

"It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It don't matter, anyhow
An' it ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If you don't know by now
When your rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone
You're the reason I'm trav'lin' on
Don't think twice, it's all right

It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
That light I never knowed
An' it ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
I'm on the dark side of the road
Still I wish there was somethin' you would do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talkin' anyway
So don't think twice, it's all right

It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
Like you never did before
It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
I can't hear you any more
I'm a-thinkin' and a-wond'rin' all the way down the road
I once loved a woman, a child I'm told
I give her my heart but she wanted my soul
But don't think twice, it's all right

I'm walkin' down that long, lonesome road, babe
Where I'm bound, I can't tell
But goodbye's too good a word, gal
So I'll just say fare thee well
I ain't sayin' you treated me unkind
You could have done better but I don't mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
But don't think twice, it's all right"

Dreams and Reality

So this morning I was having a bittersweet dream. Yes I have been dreaming a whole lot lately. I have no idea why or how. If I knew how, I would definitely do it again and again. My dreams are my own form of 'The Matrix'. I feel that as years go by I am more conscious when I am dreaming, allowing me to be able to control my actions and the settings of the dream to a certain extent.

I am not sure if 'bittersweet' is the correct term for it but oh well here it goes. I cannot seem to remember the early part of this dream but as early as I can remember, there was a girl sleeping on my bed in my room. Of course this room looked nothing like my real life room. It was dark, due to poor lighting as I did not noticed any curtains or windows anywhere. This girl is somebody I know in real life. It is the same girl I mentioned in my previous post of my previous dream. She was wearing some one piece dress thing which was purplish and had black trimmings or laces. It looked sort of like a negligee for sleeping but also looked like a sun dress. Apparently she felt cold while sleeping so I covered her with the blanket and it did not seem to provide her sufficient warmth. So I lay beside her letting her lean towards me which actually helped keep her warm.

That was as much as I can remember from that scene. The next scene the girl and I were at a shopping mall. I suspected it was the Jaya Jusco departmental store in 1 utama. Apparently she was at one end of the stationaries section and I was standing near the escalators. For some reason a notion played in my mind that she would never want to be with me as she had no romantic interest in me whatsoever. This I know as it is the same in real life. All of a sudden, my real life friend appeared. He was supposed to be like a messenger or a middle man of some sort. He was seen walking from her direction towards me. He said that she wanted to give us (her and me) a chance. That is when I was woken up by a call on my mobile phone. Apparently one of my friends (no relation to the dream whatsoever) accidentally called my mobile without her knowing. She probably did not lock her phone.

So yeah bittersweet. The sweet part was that the bed scene where I could be so close to her. The sad part is knowing it will never happen in real life especially the part where she would give me a chance. My good friend Shawn said that we never know and it might happen in the future. I would really hope that it was true, but c'mon I am a skeptical person, a factual person. The type who would need solid evidence and proof which might contribute to such probabilities.

Well I guess even if I was with her, I would be useless as I still have no job. Speaking of jobs. I am still waiting for my job offer contract which I am suppose to expect sometime this week. I should call them tomorrow, since they wanted me to start working this coming Monday. If all goes well, I will be decently paid monthly bwahahah... a little more than what freshies would get in my line of work anyway.

Transwhat now?

I watched Michael Bay's Transformers with my cousin today at 1 Utama. It was alright. The editing of the film could have been better though.

After that, I followed my cousin to Popular Bookstore. While waiting for him to get his stuff, I heard a familiar voice singing in the background. I then went to investigate the song currently being aired. It turned out to be Emi Fujita, the singer for Le Couple. The only song I ever heard from Le Couple was from Afzal's recommendation entitled Wishes which was really sweet. I even learned to play that song by ear on guitar as accurate as possible.

So this album that was played was just her singing cover songs and most of them were quite nice. Her voice is soothing and so are the arrangements of the cover songs.

The video game store below TGIF hiked up their price for World of Warcraft game card. It was freaking preposterous! I am not going to go back there anymore. I probably will get a friend to suscribe via credit card and I pay them as I am sure it will be a hell lot cheaper than what these locals are trying to rip off.

Hopefully I get a job soon... whenever I go out, I tend to splurge my cash. I saw a book that seemed interesting as well but I could not afford it. Probably will get my mom to invest in it for me hehehe...