Have I Gone Mad?

The fact that humans are imperfect are starting to get to me. Not their physical appearances but their behavior. Why do some people refuse to acknowledge that they are imperfect? Why do they say that people should get used to it as they are born that way and that they cannot ever change?

I grow tired of affiliating with these people. The world should be rid of them. To not acknowledge one's own weakness is weakness itself. For when there is no self awareness there cannot be a possibility of willingness to do something about it.

So many things off this world, so many restrictions to do something about it. When I think about it, it just makes me greatly agitated.

A Voice!

Ever wondered how the guy is usually the villain in any form of relationship breakup. I am not talking about those with either party making any serious acts such as infidelity while being in relationships. In any typical average relationship, where it is broken up, people always jump the gun in assuming the guy is at fault. My good friend has just passed me a book titled "Sex-Ploytation; How Women Use Their Bodies To Extort Money From Men".

I have only covered the introduction of the book and just lightly touched the start of the first chapter. The introduction basically explain the changes in how women behave through the ages that it got from bad to worse in a sense that by the 1980's women did not see men as equals but of lesser status and that equal status meant "pay for me and pay a lot without question", as quoted from Matthew Fitzgerald; the author himself. Mainly emphasizing that women who become housewives are parasites that live off their husband's earnings, getting them to buy them stuff, pay for whatever they want and withholding sex when it suits their purposes and always for their gain.

I will give a review on the first chapter after I have completed with it.

Pathetic

People who are unaware.
People who are aware.
That they have have negative qualities but refuse to do anything about it. They are content with just being the way they are and not do anything to change themselves for the better. The very best they can do is fabricate other factors which caused them to be the way they are.

If everybody waits for somebody else to take initiative, it will be a long time before anything actually turns out for the better. Instead of waiting for a miracle to happen, be the miracle.
Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Every little effort every individual does accumulates as a whole thus having quite a significant effect. Just like voting. To you, your vote is just one. To the entire country it is the deciding factor.

And then there is the 'you cannot see the forests from the tree' thing.

R I Otaku lol?

Yes I watch anime.
I just feel the need to explain something. The reasons why I like watching anime.
The genres of anime I watch have to involve comedy, because I like funny stuff it makes me laugh and it makes me happy. Anime I watch have to include bishounen (pretty girls) because they are beautiful to the eyes and gives somewhat a pleasant feeling to my entire soul, kind of like the opposite of being stressful. Of course with girls, I would like the anime to have some sort of romance plot, preferably one with happy endings as it is a form of escape from reality where it would never ever happen in real life. It is my form of getting away from the miseries of the real world which I think is better than getting high on drugs or getting pissed drunk. I also tend to try to pick up on what they are speaking in hopes that eventually I can appreciate anime without having to depend on captions.

Most of you would have to agree with me, reality sometimes suck, if not most of the time. Temporarily escaping or taking a break from reality, I believe is good for the soul. Humans are created in a way that they cannot stay focused too long a particular matter. Just like how two people cannot spend too much time with each other, just like how people cannot concentrate after a certain length of time in a lecture, just like how a person gets bored with an object or with doing something after numerous repetitions of it. Some people have the privilege of going away on a holiday staying at fancy hotels and stuff. I choose a simpler and more satisfying method.

Sometimes I feel that it is not so bad being a hikikomori. Now if only I could afford to be one for longer extends of time.

Accumulated Events

I have not been posting for a long while now, almost a month.
If anybody wonders why, it is because of a bunch of events that happened all within the same frame of time.

I'll be brief and do my best to not sound like those blogs where drama kings/queens make exaggerate their woes which screams for attention.

I got my heart broken around the same time as I took on a freelance job. This freelance job was a rush job (what else is new?) which could have been done 2 months ago by the company. However they decided to only work on it 2 weeks before the submission date. It was originally a job my mom accepted but decided to just dump it all on me. I had reservations on being able to deliver quality work within that short time frame. It was 6 pieces of work altogether. May I add my mom abandoned me during the weekend to hang out with her friends somewhere. Thankfully I managed to deliver everything despite their indecisions and countless times of changing their minds on the designs. I am even happier that the boss of that company liked my work. Here is the kicker, he is not Chinese or Malaysian.

I just received my cheque for the work which I have done today. I can hardly wait for it to bank in as I still owe my dad money for the computer which I replaced earlier this year due to lightning strike (yet again). Which reminds me to notify all of you, the experiences I have with lightning strikes blowing the computer, it comes through the telephone wire and not so much through the power outlets on your walls. The safest and most cost effective way to prevent your computer from being fried when there is lightning is always pulling out the plugs.

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I am beginning to wonder yet again whether the people who share the same faith as I really know what they are doing, whether they are really sincere or just doing it out of the need to belong. Thus, I am quite disappointed with the group of people I join on weekends.

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Coming back to relationships. It is ironic that whenever a girl dumps a guy, there is not really a big issue for the girl. In fact some people actually praise the girl for doing so as to maybe the guy did not deserve the girl in the first place. However when a guy dumps a girl, people tend to see the girl as the victim of being played around with. Either way the guys always get the short end of the stick.

I will tell you honestly, I am very bitter these days. Not just at a certain someone, but rather with a lot of people whom in my eyes have disappointed me one way or another. It is one thing to expect something that is rather improbable to happen, but to hope for the good that people could do which is well within their capabilities?

Here is the chorus for one of the songs from the Andrew Lloyd Webber's musical Evita which suddenly popped up in my thoughts.

There is no one, no one at all
Never has been, and never will be a lover, male or female
Who hasn't an eye on, in fact they rely on
Tricks they can try on their partner
They're hoping their lover will help them or keep them
Support them, promote them
Don't blame them, you're the same