The Gathering Calls...

Playing MTG at Gopeng kind of rekindled my interest in playing it more often, resulting in me wanting to perfect my deck with cards that I need. So I went online and did some reading up on cards as well as the many editions that I have missed when I stopped. I tell you Magic is evil; just when I stopped, they came up with nice cards which could be so useful in so many ways. The reason why I stopped previously was that I could not afford it while being jobless. However now I do have a job and funding for the cards would not doable. I only hope Bee Lee would once again embark on the journey of card acquiring with me.

go(ne from Go)peng

I appreciate being at home even more now!
The things I did at Gopeng that I am happy about:


- Spent time with my beloved, though I wish we had more time to ourselves.
- Covered 80% of Seiken Densetsu 3 with Shawn. We were hoping to finish the entire game before the trip was over. Oh well, I guess it was my fault that I got sleepy after a while playing too long. I am losing my stamina for gaming as days go by.
- Played MTG with Bee Lee, Khim Sin and Max. I am actually satisfied that my deck could actually win and also put up a good fight before losing. It has given me new motivation to perfect my deck even more.

After experiencing the 'trip'. I would see it more as a camp now. Especially since there were rules that I did not know existed. I was given the impression it was just a getaway where we just went there to relax and do whatever we wanted.

It feels great to be back. Back to my comfort zone. Back to my habitat, and in a few days time back to work. *sigh* I kind of have a mix feeling between enthusiasm and drudgery of going back to work next week. Year 2008 is near!

Are you prepared?

go(ing to Go)peng!

Hopefully I can ninja images from someone's camera and post them here when I return. Apologies not being able to bitch for 4 days.

Cool & Refreshing

Ever used those shampoos that leave your hair a minty cool feeling after you rinse it from your hair? I love using those.

Yesterday while I was showering some of that stuff got into my eye. Now usually when soap or shampoo get into my eyes, I can stand the sting it does to my eyes. However with this particular shampoo, not only did it sting, it left that cool minty sensation in my eye everytime I opened it which was annoying. Kind of like when you eat mints and upon inhaling, you feel some sort of cool sensation in your mouth, only that this was in my eye.

Happy Holidays!

Merry Christmas,
Merry Xmas,
Happy Hanukkah,
Happy Kwanzaa.

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Woke up this morning to dogs barking and birds chirping. Wish I could have killed all of them. To most it may be a special day today that comes once every year. To me, today is Tuesday.

Oh and by the way. Those of you whom I do not acknowledge your existence, kindly remove my number from your mobile phones. You are wasting your credits sending greetings to me because I do not appreciate them and receiving those just reminds me of you and the kind of person you are.

Ammunition Loaded

Went with Shawn to 1 Utama to stockpile our foodles for the upcoming trip. I am disappointed that they did not have Super Rings at Giant. Oh well, found a substitute though I am hoping somebody else would be able to get it for the trip mwahaha.

The crowd started pouring in towards lunch time and let me tell you, if ever you want to get a glimpse of what the local crowd look and/or dress like, there is not a better time than public holidays. I am always interested in seeing how the many different people dress and look. It amuses me. Some of these people have horrible sense of style. Oh bonuses goes to couples that match each other, in a bad way.

Then there are those clones that travel in packs, dressed alike. You would not be able to tell them apart. So much for being unique individuals. Then again, some of them do try to be 'different' and they look so much worse. Lesser of two evils I guess.

I was thinking of buying some greeting cards today as a last minute whim and perhaps gifts for certain people that I treasure but seeing the crowd and idiots who clog up the shops doing nothing, I decided against it. Seriously. I saw this one lian posing in the corner of the Memory Lane shop trying to look cute and shit as if it was some sort of night club waiting for somebody to buy her a drink. Then there was another generic dude with funky hairstyle (refer to Rzeznik's blog for image samples) going around the shop not knowing what he was looking for. Probably was trying to buy something he thought would be sweet for a girl to impress her. Well if she was to his standards, then I guess it might have worked.

Ah... Christmas Eve. I shall be spending it either having a nice conversation or sleeping. Sleep... good.

Chupacabra

Yesterday, a bunch of us went to Churrascaria for our annual Christmas dinner combined with celebrating people's birthdays for the month. I tell you I can never trust people's overrated reviews anymore. The food was not that cracked up to be. Their beef tasted weird. As if the beef was thrown in a frying pan and cooked until its juices and fat came out and flavored it, giving it a horrible horrible taste. The only thing that I enjoyed there was the lamb which did not make its appearance often. I see that they control customers' intake of the food whereby the waiters will occasionally bring out meat on skewers and goes from table to table asking if anybody would like them. They then proceed to use their machetes to slice and slide the meat onto your plate. Having such a large sharp object so near to my face never made me comfortable. The table was also set in a way that people from end of the table could not communicate with people on the other end. You could say the people in the middle of the long table benefited from both 'worlds'.

I was quite stuffed at the dinner. Apparently the rest of them were not. They wanted to have McDonald's ice cream after that. I could imagine my face turning green at that point of time. What the heck, I followed them just to chat and spend time with them seeing that this kind of thing only comes once a year. Overall it was pleasant I guess due to us rarely being able to gather for dinner occasions like this.

Hopefully I can borrow some images taken at the dinner. Hopefully the camera was friendly to me, else you will not be seeing shots of my face. Perhaps that would be a blessing to some of y'all.

Sleep is Awesome

It has been a while since I was able to just hibernate through out an idle day. I can tell you it has never felt better. I used to take sleep for granted saying it is overrated and would have rather used the time to progress more in World of Warcraft. However I have been cursed with a very screwed up connection from my ISP and seems to be here to stay for a long while. Due to the connection being crappy, I have no choice but to find other ways of keeping myself occupied. Sleep is an inexpensive way and I think it has some benefits to the health. It makes me feel good when I get rested sleep. Unlike every other regular nights.

Yes, I am aging, progressing through life. Enjoying the simple things in life which previously I took for granted. It is so weird, that I do not act like my age. People my age should be like going out having fun all the time and not worrying about trivial things like sleep. Oh well.

Highway of Holiness

Came across this interesting article conributed on Digg.com about some evangelical Christians who believe a certain highway in the Midwest of the U.S. to have been prophesied in the bible. The Interstate 35; which is also known as I35, is believed to be the bible verse of Isaiah 35. The entire chapter talks about the desert having this pathway of holiness and that no evil can come near it. I admit that I have not studied this book so I am unable to give any useful opinions.

The original article can be found here.

They even have a video there, which I do suggest you take a look. After watching the video, then come back to my following words.

Watching the video, I can see that they mean well. However I think their approach on some establishments and their opinions of hoping them to close down is a little bit offensive. Although some of those businesses are deemed as unethical or even wrong in the believes, they should never ever have ill will towards others. Yes there are most Christians that mean well when they approach other people, but it is by their untactful methods which drive others away and even give Christianity a bad name.

FREEDOM!

I started today with paranoia expecting the worse; whereby I would be getting a lot of last minute work pouring down on my final day at work before the holidays.

Thank God that did not happen. I manage to wrap some stuff up as well. Most of the work wrapped itself up pretty well. Thank God for that too. I should try to think of what I can do for the coming holidays. Perhaps clear my room of stuff. Perhaps finish the DVD version of last years camp at Genting Permai. That has been a while. Hopefully I still remember how to use the programs for it.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha

Well the original plan was to go stockpiling today. However reality hit us hard. Crowds were gathered at those places. This information was provided by a reliable source so we did not even bother trying. In fact my cousin also said that most places were traffic congested. Usually I would not believe him but this time around it is viable.

Instead, I spent the earlier half of the day playing River City Ransom followed by a long hibernation from afternoon to evening. That felt great. I have not that great of a rest in a long while. Thank God for holidays.

Midway

Thank God it has finally came to the middle of this slow week. Thank God tomorrow is a public holiday. Tomorrow shall be the day to stockpile on foodles for the retreat. Mwahaha...

This quest would probably start off in 1 Utama, where they have a couple of supermarkets. Failing to acquire the stuff we want, we would then proceed to Tesco. I love living in my area.

Brain pain.

Preparations Must Be Made!

I was discussing with Shawn earlier this evening regarding the trip to Gopeng. I suggested to him that one of these days we will have to acquire food supply for the stay at the state of Perak. Given my past experience at that place, we will be needing it.

It was mutually agreed that the food rations would be only exclusive to us, while the rest can go bugger off, or in Shawn's words "See mood how first."

Decisions decisions decisions... I know Super Rings are a must. Probably some instant cup noodles too.

I Sense A Disturbance

Ever had that feeling where everything is going fine and too quiet? I get that feeling as my holidays are nearing. As if some sinister force will just ambush me with crap load of work before the work days are through.

Anyways I never liked December. I never liked the month I was born in. I never liked my birthday. I never liked the seasonal holidays. Bad things tend to happen to me in December.

The Final Week Before Holilolz

My head hurts. My belt can be reduced by 2 notches.
I have no idea what has been happening to me these few days. Either my pants and belt have gotten loose, or I really lost some weight. However it does not show in the mirror. Something is rather odd... Oh wow I just realized I can wear my belt to its tightest setting, and it is still kind of loose.

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I hope to be able to finish one job before Hari Raya Aidiladha this week so I can really enjoy my holidays with a clear mind. Working life is such a chore...

What A Busy Weekend

So last night, I went to Bee Lee's place as his mom threw a dinner party thing. I just love it when events are held by neutral people. I saw faces that I did not want to see. Wherever I went they just had to make their presence felt. In simple words, they got in my face wherever I went. That kind of ruined the entire night for me but hey its my problem. The food was alright, nothing great or super to shout about. I wish I could have eaten more. I do not know why I was not that hungry and got full easily.

Bee Lee then decides to make us; the YA members to sing Christmas carols when were unprepared and kind of unwilling. Those two points already kind of upset me. What really finished it off was the fact that Bee Lee did not want to participate. Needless to say I felt embarrassed having to provide the music for it, overall making me look noob. I was just glad that Enoch and Alice decided to leave in good time so I could follow them back.

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I hate going out to public places during weekends and/or public holidays. Going to Mid Valley today taught me a hard lesson as well as a reminder not to ever try a thing like that again. It took two entries to look for a parking space, and it was not even a proper lot.

TGI Friday's at Section 14 still has good quality service and fair portion surprisingly. That would probably the only decent outlet left in Malaysia should anybody be that hard up on dining there.

I went to the education expo thingamajig to look for Enoch (Sedaya) and Bee Lee (Doctor Jobs). They both were at their respective booths far from each other. What was funny was that neither of them knew each other would be there today. It was funny that representatives from each booth tried to pass me brochures and leaflets. They thought I was still a student. Well wearing my college's shirt did not help I guess.

One Step Closer

Another day is done. Another day of some work completed. One of our clients who has not really gotten back to me regarding their work since Deepavali is finally wrapping things up. Hopefully the next time they get back to me would be a final confirmation.

You know it is ironic when you are not looking for images, there seem to be bountiful of them. However when you need to look for images of certain things, they are nowhere to be found. Such is one of the challenges I face at work which greatly slows down productivity and efficiency. Sigh... I wish I had a good camera, the knowledge to masterfully use one and the freedom to take shots of whatever I think would be useful. That way I could sell them and make lots of money. Hehehe.

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Tonight, those of us from the Covenant Caregroup had a house blessing/warming at Jason's new house. Funny thing is that none of us knew about him moving to his new place until like a couple of weeks ago. It was great. We had KFC and Domino's. The main attraction for me was KFC. I have not had that in a while and it was about time I got my fix. Usually I would stuff myself silly and feel sick of KFC and not want to eat it for months, and then I would and the cycle continues. This time however I had to go easy on it as it was just about enough to go around. Was great though. I actually am quite glad I quite while I was ahead. I could feel myself bloating up shortly after.

We took turns in praying for Jason's house. However I felt that it was not enough as we did not do the traditional visiting of room to room and praying for each room. All we did was pray together in the living room which I felt was kind of insufficient.

Tomorrow we will gather at Jason's place again for some event called Matthew and Friends. Where each member of a caregroup is supposed to invite at least one non-believer to the event to have dinner and some movie after that. I am not sure how effective the movie would be, or how interested the guests would be but oh well, at least they get free food and also able to meet more people and enlarge their network.

The day after tomorrow, would be another dinner event held by Bee Lee's mom at their place. There might be a possibility of a lot of leftovers due to some of Bee Lee's invited guess that will likely not be showing up; as if nobody saw that coming. Sometimes I wonder why he bothers inviting those certain people. Hoping for them to show up is kind of far fetched.

Sometime next week, the Covenant CG will be having our annual Christmas dinner only this time it would be combined to celebrate my birthday as well as Jason's. Kill 3 birds with one stone. Since everybody is tired to plan individual events as well as prepare food for them. Ivy suggested that we just eat at Churrascaria; that way we can ensure that everybody gets stuffed stupid and not have to bother about preparing the food and cleaning up afters. Bwahahaha and since it will be to celebrate my birthday, I think I am entitled to a free meal. I am so not going to eat for that entire day.

Sigh... gonna get fatter this month. Gonna need to work out more. *grin*

Well Shit...

Here I was thinking how long the middle of this month is going. Then I thought about the end where I would be able to enjoy myself at Gopeng with my friends. Until I found out something really disturbing. Way to totally fuck shit up for me. It was going to be my wonderful ending to a year which most part of it sucked bad. It was going to usher in a hopeful and possible bright new year. It is going to taint the experience I have set up in expectations.

Now it will be difficult to address some issues regarding certain situations regarding certain entities because of possible hindrance.

I hope you're fucking happy.

Road Blocks & Progression

I am going to attempt to make at least one post per day for the months of December, just like how I did for August. I need to shape up my writing for whatever comes in the future.

So I was late for work today and this time it was really not my fault. People were holding a protest at parliament or something today and the cops made road blocks in a lot of places causing a massive traffic jam on most highways leading to the city. I was stuck at the opposite side of the highway of my office for at least 20 minutes.

I was glad that everybody else was affected in the jam even the people that needed to get to the office. That way I was earlier than everybody else. Today was a state's public holiday so almost the entire building I worked in was vacant. Unfortunately the only holidays I get are national holidays. Oh well. Not really a problem for me. What was a problem though was that the elevators were out of service. So I had to run 4 floors up to my office. Had not done that in a long while. My knees were weakened and on the brink of giving way and my leg muscles hurt like hell. My will power was ever strong that I manage to suppress the pain and continue marching to my office.

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It was a quiet day at work where progress were going at relaxed speed due to insufficient materials for the jobs I needed to complete. It is rather difficult to pull shit out of my ass when I am not even sure which direction I should be heading in terms of content creation.

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Again I am as grateful and fortunate as ever, that I was not alone. I cannot imagine how my life was going before this.

MY love and appreciation.

Technology is Wonderful

Finally, a group of people are researching on how to filter shitty typing for the internet. It is called the StupidFilter. My full support in making this a reality. No longer will we have to suffer idiots running rampant on the internet with atrocious spelling and perhaps even grammar.

Come to think of it, maybe this country's online posting activities might be reduced by a whole lot due to those people having frustrations on how to go against the StupidFilter. That is what it does. It filters stupidity. Sayonara suckas.

The source can be found here.

Symbiosis

I make you happy, you make me happy.

Withdrawal

I find it kind of ironic now that whenever I make a withdrawal from an ATM, I always see a lot of people depositing their cash. The ATMs for withdrawing are always vacant whereas the deposit machines have queues.

Again, upon inquiring my balance I discovered that I had more in reserve than estimated. I wonder if my calculation skills are really that bad. Oh well, ain't complaining. As long as I have more than estimated and not less.

Rainy Season

I cannot remember the last time it rained this significantly around the Christmas season. When I was younger, I used to think the rainy season around Christmas was our localized version of snow since snow is not going to fall here anytime soon.

The weather is nice, especially when it rains at night. Makes you feel like cuddling with somebody you love under the covers in bed, keeping each other warm and comfortable. 16 days left 'till Christmas. Yargh!

The End is Inevitable

Get ready to say goodbye to 2007. I was going to say that I hoped it would be an end to my streak of misfortune, however I realized and know it is not going to happen. Such is life. Do not get me wrong. I am not pessimistic when I state that. I know that bad things need to happen; some of which we need to take as opportunities to further better ourselves as a person, gaining wisdom and experience to handle more difficult challenges that lay ahead. However I was referring to the shit that happens in life where I just do not see the reason for them happening. An example would be getting assaulted by a drug addict or nearly being jumped.

Well although it is the final month, I have a good feeling that it is going to end very very well for me. Perhaps for the few of us who will be taking a retreat and return to Gopeng. That place is just wonderful. This time around it has to be better since we already know what it is like and what to expect. Plans have been made to enhance the experience.

Not to mention a few food feasting events to celebrate birthdays and Christmas. Ah, Christmas. I used to be 'meh' about it like how until recently I was 'meh' about my birthday. Perhaps this year and the coming years will be a whole lot different, for better.

Thanks Guys!

I want to thank Shawn, Afzal, Marcus and Ian for throwing together a birthday dinner for me tonight. I really appreciate it and feel very blessed to have friends like y'all. Except for Marcus. I had to blackmail/threaten him to show up.

I do apologize that I had to leave so soon after the dinner because I had to go back to the office to try to finish up on some work, which I was unsuccessful at doing. Thankfully God gave an angel to watch over me and helped me get through the night. Nyahahar...

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I kind of feel selfish these few days since the people around me that I care for do all these great stuff for me for my birthday but I kind of feel that I have disappointed them. For that, I am sorry... I make a lousy birthday person. I guess I am not used to it. Also I kind of blame my work. I feel so bad that I do not dare repeat the stuff I did anymore because I do not want to hurt anybody. Gonna turn emo now.

Twenty Three Reprise

Best Birthday Ever!

Twenty Three

Meh.

Beware of Scammers

While I was at work today, my dad got a phone call on his mobile. It was some person trying to scam him. I am not sure what the details were, but apparently it was for some competition and the works. My dad just plainly and repeatedly declined whatever the lady on the phone had to offer. She also asked if my dad could speak in mandarin. It started out as a survey. However the caller then proceeded to ask for my dad's name. Something is not right here. No form of survey would ever need to ask for personal information especially names. My dad at this point of time was already losing his patience so he just told the person once and for all that he was not interested in whatever she had to offer. So she said something rather rude to him in mandarin, something about telling him to go die and my dad cuss the fuck out of that bitch and hung up. That person tried to call back repeatedly but my dad did not pick up the phone.

My dad told me about it when I got out of work. I guess it must have been those scammers and perhaps even from overseas, maybe like Taiwan or China or something. The caller was pretty stupid if you ask me. If the caller wanted potential suc... er customers, she could have at least practice a little restraint and professionalism in order to convince the caller to hang on a little longer to hear her out rather than sound harassing and threatening. Well I am pretty angry about what had happened. I don't know. I tend to get very protective and aggressive when the people I care about are threatened in any way.

Anyways dear readers. Please watch out for dodgy callers like these. If they harass you, do not hesitate to lodge reports to the proper authorities, I guess the police in this case? If they would do anything about it.

Also beware of any kind of forms which require you to enter your personal information such as house address and especially phone numbers. Do not be lured by the promises of having chances to win prizes for merely completing slogans. Be careful with your personal information. Do not give it out unnecessarily.

Wonderful Milestone

I would like to commemorate as well as set a reminder for myself of the transition from a dark and gloomy life to a bright and wonderful one just as November ends and December begins.

These past few days have been a cyclone of events that pushed my being to its very limits. Or something like that. It gave me an euphoric yet divine feeling, it dragged me to the lowest point of my emotions and back again. Having experience that, I am all the more thankful of my life, what God has done for me, how He has blessed me and in recent times, blessed me in a way that nothing else on earth can compare. I am truly happy and eternally grateful. What He has given to me, I treasure, I cherish, I protect, I care for, I love.

To God be the glory!

Let me ninja a couple of verses from a song to dedicate.

There's no more waiting
Holding out for love
You are my Godsend
That I have been forever dreaming of
My angel from above

What is this feeling
I've never known before
That I should touch you
Swearing to surrender ever more
Thats what I came here for

Girls Vs Women

I read a thread in a forum recently and a member posted a rather lengthy post about the difference between girls and women. Unfortunately I could not relocate it and had to resort to google which only gave me a fragment of what I read previously.

Here it goes...

Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.
Matured women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits.

Girls want to control the man in their life.
Matured women know that if he’s truly hers, he doesn’t need controlling.

Girls check you for not calling them.
Matured women are too busy to realize you hadn’t.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Matured women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Matured women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come home.
Matured women make you want to come home.

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Matured women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all their man’s time ( I.E. don’t want him hanging with his friends).
Matured women realize that a lil’ bit of space makes the ‘together time’ even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends!

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Matured women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls want to be spoiled and ‘tell’ their man so.
Matured women ’show’ him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his ‘manhood’.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Matured women know that, that was just one man.

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all ’signs’.
Matured women know that sometimes the one you love, don’t always love you back and move on, without bitterness.

If anybody knows the original author as well as anymore additions to this piece, please let me know so I can properly credit their work.

Shocka!

For some reason I have static electricity charged in me. When walking beside my friends if I get too near them, we'll shock each other. Marcus can attest to that. What is weird is even when I am wearing long sleeves.

Few minutes ago I shocked myself when I touched a door knob only this time the charge was bigger than usual. I actually felt the stinging sensation and heard some crackling sound.


Now if only I can redirect currants at people.

Its 4am

and I can't frickin' sleep.

I only have one thing on my mind.
I am so full of anxiety over it.

I try to stay calm,
But my heart just won't still.
Happiness and fear is what I feel.

Happy to know that I am not alone anymore.
Afraid that I will lose it.
I won't find another that is like this.
I don't want it to be a miss.

The wait is misery.
The thought of the outcome is agony.
I am suffering in silence, but it never felt so good.
I feel grateful to be alive to be able to feel the way I do.
It is like a curse and a blessing.

Balls! ...of Fury...

Finally got a chance, and the tickets; thanks to Afzal to watch Balls of Fury. I have been trying to watch this movie for the past 3 weeks with no avail due to the cinemas being fully booked. Well excluding the first two front rows.

I went with Afzal, Shawn and Ryan. The show was not that cracked up to be, I was somewhat disappointed but I will not openly voice that to the guys. I do not want to sound like an elitist jerk. This is one of those films where they put all the good scenes into the trailer. Seriously.

If any of you want to watch this, I suggest watching it at home and not invest your money in watching this at the cinema. It had some hits but unfortunately more misses as it contained mostly slapstick comedy and to me, predictable punch lines. I am impressed that they manage to get such big names to star in this movie. The financial resources would have probably been better spent in creating a quality screenplay instead of hiring big stars. Well I guess our local audiences do not really give a rip as long as they get to see people walking into pillars, getting their nuts smashed and even some eye candy provided by Maggie Q. Which reminds me, Ryan could not stop going on and on about Maggie Q while we were in the cinema. I was like "Dude, some of us are trying to enjoy the rest of the movie."

Too Late. Up Yours.

So I got a call while at work today from a magazine company which I applied for a job months ago, the same time I applied for the position in my current work. Guess what? Now they call me and tell me they have a job opening. After almost half a year? Back then they were not serious about even dealing with me and now all of a sudden they want me?

They can lick my nuts.

Days of Productivity

Yesterday was real slow moving at work but then fast at the same time. Maybe because I phased in and out of consciousness a bit too much. Oh I have been perfecting my one liner and here it goes.

The only productivity I did was the frequent trips to the bathroom.

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Have you ever met someone that once you start talking, you feel some sort of connection where you could just tell them everything about yourself and they would be able to relate and understand you? Whilst you are thinking there is something wrong with yourself but they find it totally understandable and accept it straight out? Not only that, but that someone would reciprocate the same way confiding in you about themselves and in the end leaving each other feeling lifted from burden?

Oh oh bonus, they actually get it when you try to be funny and appreciate the same kind of humor you do. Also finding out that you are not the only one who is not perfect and that what you are to them is perfectly normal.

*Sigh*

Cool Dream

So here I was in what seemed to be like a church with all the usual faces, only that there were no details on their face. I guess it portrayed how unimportant they were. So this person and her current significant other were at the pulpit making some statements which seemed to be like praising God, but to me it was all propaganda to win over the congregation.

I walked out of the building as soon as I heard this which of course was noticed by that person on stage. Upon seeing that she changed her speech into insulting me. I heard it. What I did was went around the back of the building into the back entrance which led to the stage where she was now sitting down on a chair. I grabbed a vacant chair on the way to the stage, with everybody looking in fear. I went up to her while she was sitting down and not looking at my direction. I jumped as high as I could slamming the chair's surface down on her head. The only problem in that dream was that the chair was a plastic one.

I woke up shortly after that with symptoms of waking up from a nightmare. Short of breath and all that. I do not understand why I reacted that way because to me it was a great dream. I smiled thinking about it. I hope the rest of my day goes well.

Difficult People

I have been reading and came upon some articles regarding difficult people and dealing with them. Quite an interesting source of information. The book is called Dealing with Difficult People by Roy Lilley.

I have not read the entire thing as the link I came across was only a sample of a few pages from the entire book. Read those few sentences was already enough for me to agree with him.

I will see if I can remember what I wrote. Roy wrote, that there are not many people in the world that truly care about you. How we treat people is merely a product about how we feel about each other. Difficult people do not care about you at all. They only care about themselves in a big way. Roy also gave a strong and compelling statement that difficult people are predictable people. This is the part which caught my full attention and I have to tend to agree. I would like to especially focus on the predictable part.

Some people get pissed off when it is indicated of how predictable they are. I can understand that they do not like it when people come up to them claiming that their actions can be read as if they are some sort of programmed robot with no free will. As if their lives' events are all known by you. That is perfectly understandable. However my inquiries on this; why do they feel offended if in fact it was true that they are so set in their ways, refusing to change, not caring about others? If they did not care about others why would they be affected by how people perceive them? Could it be that they just hate the fact that their actions have been figured out by people? Another thing to point out, I am talking about when you see a person who indubitably repeats his/her actions and reacts the same way everytime certain events happen. I am not talking about people you hardly know and then labeling them predictable.

There are some who will use the 'reason' that humans are creatures of habit. Personally I think it is a cop out. I see it as 'effective' as people who say 'I cannot change my [enter trait here]. I am born that way.' Is that not in itself ironic? That the person hates it when other people say they are predictable as if their life's course has been figured out and predetermined, when their defense is that they are created that way implying the inability to change?

Well you may have predicted as to why I brought this subject up. Obviously I encountered this experience today where somebody got irritated that when I said it was to be expected while waiting for that person's answer regarding his decision. I got a few statements back which consisted of

1. that person did not like being read like a piece of literature
2. that humans are creatures of habit
3. that people of the similar mindset would do the same to me

Hence the reason why my first few paragraphs above. What I chose not to bring up to that person in my form of response was that I put up with that person's behavior as well, only that I do not have a pole stuck up me and choose to let it slide. Which in turn brings back to the case where being nice does not really prevail. People will just step all over you.

If a girl got stood up by a guy after a few times, the girl would surely wise up and expect/predict the guy not to show up in the future arrangements to meet up. Is she wrong for predicting the person to not show up? Is she wrong for expecting the person not to show up? I think she should just not bother to arrangements of meeting up with the guy anymore to save time and energy. Some may say the girl is foolish to keep making arrangements to meet up with the guy despite the repetition of events.

Those of you who are so set in your ways, I hope you are happy where you are.

Hunter Killers

I just got woken up by my dog; Mocha's very very fierce growling and barking. What went through my mind within seconds were:

Why was she so fierce?
Was there another dog at the gate?
If there was, she would not really react that fierce.
Perhaps she was fighting with Speedy but if that was the case I would hear Speedy screaming.
I heard Speedy reacting the same way as well and thought maybe Speedy was eating Mutu.
However Mutu was still barking with them so it must have been something else.

I came down to see a dead body on the driveway. From a glance it looked like a dead cat however upon closer inspecting it was a rodent type thing. A very huge one at that. It was the size of my forearm. I am not exaggerating. Thankfully my Mocha is only vicious with small animals such as cats and rodents. She knows never to harm people. My dad had to go bury the rodent outside of the house and all was peaceful again. Just makes me wonder, what dangerous creatures dogs can be if they were not tame or obedient to their masters.

Weekend Again!

It is a neverending cycle, hopefully a cycle which improves over time.
The end of the year is coming... and I think my clients are preparing themselves for it as well... seeing that they take forever to get back to me in approving/changing the stuff we are working on.

Anyways a bunch of us were at Bee Lee's crib tonight and we played a card game called Citadels. I am not sure if it is to be labeled a board game or a card game as it does not really have a board to play on. It was fun. We played only one game, I was trailing behind because I was noob at the game. Since I am a gamer, I tried to seek out exploits in the game resulting in me 'turtling' the game which granted me a steady progress. However with such low risk strategy comes low gains. Khim Sin as usual was devious in his strategies while others still had not learnt their lesson in not joining forces to go all out on him. Everytime he is unharmed, he gains more and more in the game.

Basically the game involves people picking roles which each have their own special capabilities to aid themselves in building up 8 structures. Every player will have to repick their roles each turn. Whoever builds 8 structures first, ends the game. The value of each building are then calculated to see who has the most points. Hence whoever has the most points wins the game.

Kind of sad that May Yi was not around to play the game.

I hope this weekend goes great for me and for you.

I See Things

I checked my email today and saw something amusing...



Heehee

Rain and Dumb People

It was raining almost the entire day today which made my office colder than usual. I wore a long sleeved shirt to the office and that was insufficient to keep me warm. It still did not help me when I put on a jacket.

Usually I love the rain, especially when I am at home and wanting to sleep. However I got stuck in a jam due to the rain. Which made me not too happy. What did not help is that idiots were using the road outside of my housing area as a shortcut across from the NKVE highway to the highway which leads to 1 Utama and onwards to Kepong. I hate these people as they are such inconsiderate pricks. It is because of them squeezing into the road which leads to my place, that causes a congestion elsewhere and creates a whole chain reaction. So in the end all passage that leads into and out of my place, are clogged up.

I was suppose to have dinner and movie with Marcus today as usual, having Shawn as well this time around. However due to the bad jam everywhere and me being super hungry, and GSC not having nice seats for the movie we wanted to watch, the whole thing was canceled leaving me having dinner with Shawn. Not that it is in anyway bad. We always have things to talk about. The friends I hang out with, are not shallow dumb idiots who cannot seem to talk about anything besides the latest trend and what every other sheeple do.

I went out to the taxi stand to look out for my dad who was to pick me up. I went to a wrong car which looked exactly the same as my dad's. I scared the shit out of the driver in the car who was obviously waiting for somebody else. I was cool about it, calmly saying 'Sorry! Wrong car!' and went off. That driver must think I was some mugger or something. Previously, I would be embarrassed and very upset over such a thing, but nowadays I just can't give a shit anymore. So that was the most interesting and dumb thing that happened to me today.

Pulling Tea at the YMCA

Today, my care group and I went to make and serve Teh Tarik at the YMCA in Brickfields. It was a new project which I think my godfather had a part of starting. Previously he was doing the street feeding ministry where people volunteer to help give out food to the drug addict and beggars in Petaling Street. However since they cleaned up that place there is not many people left there, which is why they started a new project at the YMCA.

It was raining when we were there which I guess reduced the number of people expected to show up. There was too many of us there which left most of us idled and unassigned for anything. Here are some pictures.


Setting Up Shop


Lai Chin pulling tea


Khim Sin pulling tea


Keeper of the Cauldron


Needs more umph!


Guess what I'm doing?


Teaaaaaa...


Business tak laku. Actually we ran out of tea.


We treated ourselves for a day's work and Bee Lee since it was his birthday at Fish & Co. at the Bangsar Village. Business there was slow, so were the waiters. The food was however nice. Nothing super special, but nice.

October to November Birthdays

Okay people you need to stop having your birthdays in these two months. Seriously I have been forking out cash celebrating you guys' birthdays and it is depleting my financial resources...

Diwali Rhapsody

Yeah it is Deepavali today and it is public holiday! I took leave for tomorrow which means it is a long weekend for me. Mwahahaha! Still did not get much sleep though. At least now I can sleep in the afternoon or evening whenever I feel like it and not pretend to be working. Hopefully I can get my errands done during these couple of days. I will need to register to vote, get a haircut and also try to see if I can check on the status of my EPF contributions.

My house has got a little smaller due to the arrival of a temporary new member of the family. First it was Mutu in 2000; my sister's miniature pinscher which she never looked after in the first place, then a year after was mine, Mocha; a mixed breed with dominant labrador and german shepard heritage who by far is the best dog I have ever met. She is mild mannered, intelligent and obedient. Not too long ago came a third one, Hope; a schnauzer. She is very cuddly and cute like a teddy bear with the curly kind of hair.

The day before yesterday, Enoch acquired a fox terrier from a family who wanted to get rid of it. This fox terrier is a very hyper dog which cannot sit still. His original name still is shrouded in mystery while Enoch has been changing his name from Tigger to Milo to Speedy. He does not seem to be able to do simple commands like sit. I am kind of tired after having to educate the previous three so I just wish Enoch all the best when he brings Speedy to his new place.

The Dinner Show s01e04

Tuesday night, is maintenance night, so once again I went out to have dinner with Marcus. Will resume more when I have the time. Was too busy PVP'ing.

Updated: Okay screw this, I cannot remember details after this long anymore. Consider this episode a recap.

Buffalax Is My Hero

So there is this guy under the alias of Buffalax who puts in his own custom sub titles for Indian Music Video and they are just downright hilarious. These two videos were linked to me by Eric and I laughed so hard until tears streamed down my eyes. My stomach hurts too...

Dilbar Dilbar remix by woodbulb inspired by Buffalax



Buffalax doesn't know the title of this original...

Another Dream!

I really love it when I have nice dreams. Especially the kind where I never would have even thought about it in real life. Again this time it was about a girl. However not any girl that I have ever dreamt of before. The dream was pretty 'poorly edited', in a sense that one moment we were normal friends like how we are in real life, the next scene we were together. I will not go into details about the 'relationship' because thinking about it now, I get embarrassed. It is nothing obscene or promiscuous as my dreams are usually anyway, rather sweet and innocent. Why do I dream of such things? If you had read my previous blogs of my dreams then it would be of similar effect for this.

Needless to say, that it really was a good start to this day, which I hope will go well and end well.

Meuniere & Ice Cream

As mentioned, I went back to church to play the drums. This time around I felt as if the congregation was actually singing. Well that was a slight improvement I guess. I also intentionally made myself see tunnel vision, where I avoided from looking at people, people that were of no use to me. That way even if they were looking at me with judgmental eyes and whatnots, I would not notice or give a shit.

An ever so light poke on the back of my shoulder was enough warmth to feel sincerely welcomed again. Also some words of advise telling me that it was not worth not-going to church made me think that there actually may be one or two people in the church that actually have a slightest amount of concern for me. Imagine that. However seeing certain faces did darken my heart. Thankfully I mustered all the strength I had to suppress malicious thoughts resulting in an state of unease.

* * * * *

Went to Swenson's for lunch with my godfather (yeah I said godfather) and some of my friends from church. Reason being that Lai Chin somewhat lost to a 'bet' with Enoch and the wager was an ice cream treat. Lai Chin also wanted to treat my godfather so why not kill two birds with one stone. I was never impressed with Swenson's menu. Now back in the day when I was still in primary school, Swenson's food was awesome and they were not really well known then. The one I used to visit often was the one in Damansara Jaya, behind Atria. That was the best ice cream you could get. This was way before names like Haagen Dazs and Baskin Robbins ever set foot in the country.

I ordered the Cheese Sticks, which were basically the deep fried breaded mozzarella. It was not done properly and according to Max, his piece was cold in the middle. My main course was meuniere chicken. Which was basically breaded chicken chop with a side of fries and coleslaw. I suspected the chicken may have been undercooked but we will see if I get food poisoning over the next few days. We all shared an earthquake; few ice cream flavors bunged in one big bowl. In terms of portion, I can say it was just enough. Not too little, not too much. I guess it was not so bad. However I do not expect to do these kind of dining on a regular basis. Do not get me wrong, I love food but I do not prioritize in spending my funds on food.

Lacklustre

Went to have dinner with some friends from church today. The dinner event itself was to celebrate one of their birthday's organized by its special flavor of the... moment?

I was stoned the entire dinner because of the lack of sleep the night before. Of course I felt like an alien in that group for many reasons. I never fit in with most groups anyway, its just that this time it felt even more awkward, like I was not really welcomed there or because I was there, everybody was not really at ease. Ah well... Guess that will not happen again, because I will not show my face for such events anymore. Do not say I did not try. I am sorry, I just do not fit in with the 'normal' people.

I have no idea why I keep going back to the church which I said I would not again and again. I guess I somewhat was hoping that the entire scene would change, for the better. When I came back, everything was the same. Just like when I left months ago, just when I left for Australia, two years ago. Will there be any significant change in the people and the church for the better? I see some people still retaining their same behavior, the same everything. I feel numb. I feel odd. The place I grew up in, the place I once was loyal to, is growing stagnant and it looks as if it is slowly withering.

The Dinner Show s01e03

So last night was the usual dinner and talk with Marcus. On our way from my house our conversation went something like this...

M: So what do you feel like eating?
N: I know what I don't wanna eat!
M: ?
N: Noodles!
M: F***. Then uh we can go seik fan.
N: Yeah but where?
M: True also.
N: Do you feel like Japanese? We can go to the Curve, they have Sakae Sushi over there.
M: Ikemasu (or something like that, I can't remember what he said)

And so instead of our usual venue of One Utama, we headed to the Curve. I have to say, I am really a bad person. Diagonally opposite from our table, sat a lady dressed quite decently, formal and everything sitting alone for a long time. She looked pretty attractive from behind. I had no intention of trying to see what her face looked like. As time went on, I manage to deduce that she was waiting for someone. Now here is the thing. I was expecting that someone to be a guy, possibly her boyfriend. What I also expected was that perhaps he would dress in similar fashion in a sense, at least smart casual or something to match with her. Man I was wrong. He shows up pretty late in t-shirt and shorts. Those typical type of looking guys with the black plastic frame glasses and poorly attempted spiky hair style. Oh and with slippers. I was trying not to burst out in laughter until Marcus was asking me what was wrong with me. I then explain to him what I just wrote and he said that if he was in my position, he would have thought and reacted exactly the same way. Good that it is not just me!

From talking about that couple's relationship, it somehow led to our point of views in relationships where we think it is rare to find a girl (at least in this country) who have the criteria of somebody that we would go out with. One of it that I sure as hell will not need is the requirement where the guy has to do everything for the girl. Examples consists of having to drive the girl everywhere. Needing to call the girl every single day. Having to spend all my free time with her whether I want to or not. A relationship should not suddenly alter my lifestyle to her benefit. I should not be assimilated into her lifestyle. That is just being like a slave with no free will of my own, or say for that matter. A relationship should be a plus, or an addition to what we already have as our lifestyle.

I also talked about how certain people seem to have a same behavior of pattern when it comes to looking for a partner. I gave a few examples and here is one of them. Some guys would make it seem like his life is a tragedy and his life sucks but he tries to show that he is strong enough to endure it while looking pitiful in hopes of gaining sympathy and perhaps something a little more from his 'target'. You would think that people that come up with these kind of scheme would be a little more creative but they tend to reuse their stale tactics which I cannot fathom.

* * * * *

We went to Baskin Robbins' for some ice cream after dinner because I was dying for the 'peanut butter & chocolate' flavor thingy which gave me an euphoric pleasure the last time I went. What a crap in a hat that it was not available anymore. Marcus suggested that I try the World Class Chocolate, which I did, and damn that was good stuff. Probably that will be my current new favorite should the peanut butter and chocolate flavor not return.

* * * * *

Somehow our conversation manage to link to the differences or rather the similarities in the congregation of our respective beliefs. The summary of it was that the negative factors such as gossiping, slandering and other backstabbing methods originates from the 'culture' of the community which could have been due to their upbringing and surroundings. Oh it also includes being xenophobic where these people are afraid of changes or things which are not out of their ordinary. Whereby if a person is different from them, especially poses as a potential threat in terms of rivalry or perhaps a better replacement.

Humans are wonderful creatures.

Self Reflection

Hmm... I think... that it is time for me to get my hair colored again!
I wonder if I can pull it off by having people always remember my hair being orangey/blonde and not black?

Sigh my dad is going on a roadtrip with one of his buddies along the East Coast. Which means that I might just have to drive myself to and fro work while he is gone. Apart from being lazy to drive, reasons why I try not to drive is because of my temper. I become somebody else behind the wheel being unable to tolerate other motorists who drive like asses. It is really no good for my health as I can feel my blood pressure rising whenever I am behind the wheel. Also, my office although quite near from my house if you consider a straight line from point A to point B; has lots of obstacles in the middle. Parking space and location too is a pain at that place. If I were to drive, I would have to wake up extra early to prepare as well as find parking when I reach there. I would also reach home later than usual because I would have to get to the car park, start the car take a long an inconvenient route back home. To add more to it, my dad's car is what I call, a deathtrap. It is old, the previous owner had not the slightest idea on how to maintain it. It basically is falling apart while my dad is doing his best to prevent it from doing so.

Once I had to drive to work while doing my internship in Jalan Kuchai Lama years back while I was still in college. Whenever I speed around a curve on the highway, the car would tilt so badly that I had to put my right arm on the window to support myself. My dad also told me that he forgot to refill the brake fluids during the time I was driving the car. Though I schooled a rich man's kid in his white Perdana for tailgating me thinking he was bad ass. Yeah with my dad's junk car.

Red, Yellow, Black and White

I came across a thread in a local forum today. The title of the thread was about jokes, having posters contribute there. I was displeased to find almost all of the jokes consists about one race making fun of another race. Although it is supposed to be taken as a joke, I personally feel that certain things should not be made light of in respects to people of other races despite them being alright with it.

I brought this up with one of my friends on msn, telling him how disgusted I am with the local people's mentality. He admitted that he too was like them. He then proceeded to give his reasons why he disliked them the way he did. I responded saying that even people of the same race have the same problems as he stated, if not worse.

It does not matter what ethnic we are, there will be good and bad people. Just because we experienced more bad than good with members of a certain race does not mean they are all like that. What is worse is that people who look down upon others. When these people judge the others, it implies that they are better, superior than the people they criticize especially stereotyping them. If they were indeed 'better' than the others, they would not need to be so 'vocal' about it to begin with. Why stoop to their level, if not lower than their level, belittling them? Especially when they have nothing to do with them in the first place.

Those of you who blatantly criticize people of other races, should stop, for it is because of people like you that contribute to the nation's immaturity and stagnancy in the development of the country. Notice how other countries despite being multi-racial are able to progress together as a nation? Notice how they call themselves by their nationality and not their race? It is with tolerance and patience that help build their countries. Although we have a long way to go, if everybody makes the first move in changing for the better, I believe we will be able to get there sooner than we think.

The Internet

I always thought that when I first started my blog that nobody would read. Hence I became more open and as time went on, I sensed there were eyes or traces of other humans having come across my blog. So I wrote more stuff with a thought of people reading in mind. Who would have known that it even attracted negative critics? Well I did somewhat but never expected them to be somewhat vocal about it, in a figure of speech that is. Some say there is no such thing as bad publicity. While I reveal who I truly am on the internet speaking my mind on certain subjects in life people can really see me for who I am. I am not the least bit worried about my 'image' being tarnished. I admit that I am not perfect, I am not Mr. Nice guy. I am not here to please you. I do not need your approval. I do not wish to be a part of your group. I do not wish to be part of the cool kids. I never was and never will be. I like being a prick in the things I say, I truly feel. I rather be the devil people know rather than the devil that they do not. However, I must admit that as time goes by I am enjoying attracting readers. I especially enjoy it when I find out that they hate my guts. It is even more savory when they say stuff about me as if they know me. They have given me the capability to be whatever they want me to be, all at the power of their own minds without me even lifting a finger in making them do so. Cool huh? They have to be pretty perfect in order to say stuff about other people, but oh well what would I know? Yeah I know nothing about them except that they are quite amusing when they speak as if they have me all figured out. Go you! Keep it up!

Anime Overflow

Thanks to the fansubs for being slow, I cannot finish the previous season's anime and because of that I will not proceed with the new animes that already have begun. However I am still downloading the new ones in hopes I will actually have time to watch them all. So many new series this season all awaiting for me to review to determine which I will truly follow. My harddisk space is slowly maxing out again and rather messy with anime and manga here and there in different folders and partitions. There is just not enough hours in a day.

The ones that I will watch and determine which would be worth me following will be:

Clannad
Myself; Yourself
Kodomo no Jikan
Shion no Ou
Dragonaut
Kimikiss
Da Capo 2
Goshuushou-sama Ninomiya-kun
ef
Bamboo Blade
Prism Ark
Minami-ke

The outstanding ones which I have yet to watch from the previous season are [updated!]:
Lucky Star [completed]
School Days [stupid fansubs still have not finished this yet went on to sub new ones]
Lovely Complex [I think its finished but I have not watched either]
Zero no Tsukaima 2 [completed]
Seto no Hanayome [ARGH WHY DID THEY NOT FINISH THIS AGES AGO!?]
Sayonara Zetsubuo Sensei [fansubs are being slow on this as well]
Doujin Work [slow on this too]
Moetan [I wonder what happened to this as well]
Umisho [refer to above comment]
Touka Gettan [this anime though pretty in drawings just did not attract my attention enough to finish it]

Read The Warning Label!

You know how some stuff have warning like "Keep Out of Reach of Children"? They are there for reasons. Yet some kids who may or may not understand simple instructions, still play with the stuff and then they get burnt or explode or whatever. They then cry and blame the stuff or the manufacture for their own stupidity. This is the reason why I have locked my other blog. People who bitch and cry about what I write when nobody told them to read it in the first place. So there.

Raya Mode

I love it when it gets nearer to Hari Raya. The clients of my company will not get anything done. Hence I have no work to do as my part have already been finished as early as last week and the next step is actually waiting for the clients to get back to me for changes. So until then I am on standby.

100th Post and 2 Phones

Yes I have managed to reach my one hundredth post without much difficulty or inconsistency. There is just so much to write about. So many thoughts, so many views, so many opinions. Yet so limited time, so limited options.

I have spotted two more technological devices that have won me over just by reading about their vague information and images. Introducing the Nokia N81 and N82. This time around it sort of fulfills my criteria mainly the first being a monoblock phone, none of that flippy, twisty, rotating shit.

This baby right here has a built in 8gb flash drive, probably the same type they used for the iPod touch. Has a 2 megapixel camera, which does not really matter to me because I do not believe in capturing full on photos with a phone camera. Oh it has a 3.5mm headphone port to it which means I can plug in my own headphones and have better sounds. Two of my concerns of the phone is that it slides, I am not sure if the mechanism on this phone will be sturdy and also I cannot really make out if this phone has a secondary camera, you know for 3G video calls.



This N82 is oh so beautiful... it is white! It offers a 5 megapixel camera with a bright flash this time around. However it does not give priority to music lovers whereby it has no mention of the availability of a 3.5mm port and no built in mass storage so I would have to get a micro SD which of course will not be able to compare in terms of storage size of N81. There will be people that comment on the N82 trying to look like the Sony Ericsson models but meh... Nokia also made the N76 similar to the Motorola RAZR. If they improve on the originals, I have no complains. People have speculated for these babies to be released sometime during the final quarter of this year. If it is going to cost a whole lot more than the current N95, I definitely will not be having it at the top of my wishlist.

Image Sources are from
http://www.ringnokia.com/images/
2007/05/10/051007_0310_nokian818gb1.jpg
and
http://www.ringnokia.com/images/
2007/05/10/051007_0330_nokian82ima1.jpg

"Looking for a Boyfriend"

... is the thread title I saw at a local online community. Me being a nosy bugger who just have to go scrutinize stuff in the name of analysis and research, had to check the scene. Apparently this person who claims that she is a girl much to others' belief, posted a simple sentence that she was looking for a boyfriend.

What was hilarious is that the thread reached up to 34 pages, of course with local forums people tend to have difficulties collecting their thoughts and putting it down in one single post. So they have to split up sentences in a few different posts but that was not the point. The point is there are actually people responding to the request of that person. I then navigated to the forum section where that thread was created. I was amused to find other threads with titles having to do with finding out about if a person is spending too much on their girlfriends or even like a girlfriend asking the ex boyfriend to return the items she bought for him or vice versa. Authors would make a fortune writing guide for numbnuts regarding relationships. On second thought the locals would be either too cheap to buy a book and also probably have difficulty reading. If only life was so convenient whereby looking for a partner was as easy as going online searching for one, trying it out and hit it off. Well it is actually possible especially in western countries and the great usage of MySpace or even f***book, or facef**k. I know of people who actually got laid via MySpace but that is not for me to detail.

The Dinner Show s01e02

While being bored at work I got an sms from Marcus wanting to hang out tonight so yeah why not since I suspected there was a server maintenance for a new patch anyway. We went again to the usual nearby and convenient (for me at least) 1 Utama for dinner and a movie. We ate at Carl's Jr. It has been a long while since I had my fix from there. They definitely are beginning on the downsizing of the portions of food. I believe that they did not include a full cheese spread in the burgers this time around and also the portion is somewhat less. Thankfully I do not go there often.

God never fails to amaze me. Everytime I give and give I still find that I have more than I expected in my savings. Of course I do not give with the thought of a reward in return. However I do remember that God will not forsake those that bless others, one way or the other. Conveniently the method which I can do best at the moment is to give people things that they need/require or maybe things they truly want through whatever meager earnings I have.

Anyways back to the main story. We watched Chuck & Larry. It is about two best of friends willing to sacrifice their lives for each other. They go beyond ordinary boundaries to help each other out putting their reputation and image on the line while using it to help others'. What I like about the movie was that they made it funny and yet not offensive to the gay community. They manage to veer of areas which may have proven to be sensitive or questionable. Kudos to Adam Sandler in developing his mad skills in film over time. Kevin James was also great in this movie. If only he could do more movies in the future I am sure he will only get better. I did not get a chance to enjoy his previous film Hitch where he was co-starring alongside Will Smith.

I Got Your Facebook Right "Here" !!!

Do not invite me to join facebook. Do not invite me to join similar kind of nonsense. Why? Because most of you have already butchered it to give it a bad image. Just like what I have always been harping about what happened to friendster.

I will put you in my facebook. I will put your face in two slabs of stone and slam it real hard, Moses style. Oh look! A dumb sandwich!

Reading is Good for Who?

I remember back in school days, adults and teachers always encouraged the younger ones like myself to read more. Especially newspapers. Supposedly to keep with the times, being aware of what goes on in the world in order to be more prepared I guess. I am not sure how it was back then but these days, the newspapers and other 'sources' of information are rigged. Not in a sense that the news are made up, but the source providers determine the information which are to be provided to the readers. In a way they control the masses. They decide what to tell the people, changing the way they perceive the world and also averting their attention to certain issues possibly to distract them while trying to avoid other matters which may be more pressing.

I have noticed a similar pattern in the making of the news since 10 years ago when I decided to read newspapers seriously. Whenever there is a dangerous issue regarding the way how the country is being run, it all seems to dissipate rather nicely followed by a barrage of other type of news. I will take sexual assault as an instance. Every now and then there will be a flurry of sexual assault related news in the newspapers that would last for an amount of time. Of course this makes everybody more careful. I guess the current 'trend' now are paedophiles. You will notice that after a major and brutal incident that similar news have been appearing all over the news.

I am not condemning what is being published but rather would prefer it if they did not just fixate on one particular type of criminal activity like a seasonal thing. Publishing lots of articles regarding one particular type of criminal activity does not necessarily mean that it is the in thing in the country that potential criminals are doing. It especially does not mean that there are not other crimes happening, like murder and corruption.

I get irritated when people speak as if they are so well informed of what goes on in the world. They say things like "Nowadays, there are a lot of rape going on ohh..." As if it does not happen every other time it is not published in the news? Hence I reiterate that reading does not make a person better or refined. A person can be given things to help make things better, but also he can use it for his own selfish purposes and even at the cost of others.

The Dinner Show

I just came back from dinner with Marcus. I hope you all should know by now which Marcus I am referring to. Now see here is a guy I can talk on hours end with about stuff that is not mindless jock talk about cars or sports or chick banging.

I treated him to dinner this time around for sort of like a congratulations to him who just came back from Perth (again) for his graduation ceremony as well as appreciation for the magazines he imports for me from over the Aussieland. Yeah I know I am a cheap bastard. However my generosity tends to scale with my income. So yeah I bless others when I am blessed. At dinner, there was a couple who looked younger than me sitting one table away on my left. I did not get a good look at them because I was looking from the corner of my eye. I could make out their gestures but not the details. The guy was like stroking either the girl's arm or side of the head downwards. I was like "what on earth is this guy doing? It's hilarious!" later on they were quiet holding each other's hand. Yes one hand for one hand, saying nothing. You might think that is so cute or romantic. I thought it was pretty funny. I thought it was kind of unnatural. I think it is pretty weird and awkward to just suddenly do stuff like that especially when the guy had to reach over the table to show affection. It looked like he was trying too hard. Marcus said he was 'spreading it thick'. Oh well... kids. I was holding my head blocking my face from letting anybody see me laughing. I am that kind of person when I see something peculiar, my mind tends to bring things to the next level exacerbating the situation in my head which eventually makes me laugh.

So after dinner we had coffee...'ish drinks. Marcus then asked me why I was laughing at the couple. I then explained, which led us to talk about relationships the situations and how to react to them and also the reasonings behind them. It was more of a discussion and analysis based on the basic human behavior in whatever experience I have at least. I am sure most of you know that communication is important in a relationship. However if either sides cannot be open to each other, it means that they do not trust each other well enough which means that they do not know each other well. If they do not know each other well, then the relationship is in for a 'fun' time. Lack of communication leads to miscommunication which leads to misunderstanding. Blablabla the so on and so forth with fries on the side. Which means they are not ready for a relationship. Kind of like saving up money to buy the car, but not taking into consideration the cost of maintaining the car.

I speak as if I know so much about relationships. If so, why am I still single? It is because of such knowledge that I am still single. I will not rush into just any relationship for the sake of having one. It has to be a person who can really understand me and accept me for who I truly am, not who they want me to be. It is really difficult to find that kind of person, especially a person such as myself who tends not to hide my true personality in hopes of not tarnishing my image with the opposite gender. Perfect or near perfect people are the ones you should be suspicious . Nobody is perfect. So before you go falling for that ideal person, you should observe and get to know that person more, what is that person like when he/she is not trying to impress people and trying to make a good impression. Can you really live with a person who is not all that? I may be boring some readers with stuff they already may already know so I will stop here. If they wish to find out more about my opinions, do feel free to send me an email.

God, I love You!

So after ranting about the fansubbers being active for whatever reason and talking about it to my friend Bee Lee over lunch today. I come home to see one episode of one of my favorable anime from a fansub has been uploaded! YAAAARGH!

Oh yeah about lunch, I went to have lunch with Bee Lee today. He came by and picked me up and we went to Atria to eat. The original plan was to go SS2 but that place is jam-fucked with cars during lunch hour and I never liked that place due to that being one of the many reasons. We did not really had much time to talk but yeah it was still great to see he was still alive after a long while.

We talked about animes of course and he told me some rather... I do not know if I should call it good news. You know the anime I mentioned in a previous post regarding some guy who liked a girl, got his close girl friend to get her for him and then when he had her, he cheated on her with his close girl friend? Yeah well... apparently there is a good ending where he got what was coming to him. Not so good for other people who were not him though... oh well... You cannot have everything I guess. More over I am glad that it has finally ended thus ending the agony of having to follow such a sad story. Although I wish the fansub would hurry the hell up in subbing them already.

WRU ANIME!?

It has been too long since the fansubs have stopped producing subs for the anime I am following... sigh. The problem is that they leave no messages or any signs if they are actually going to continue doing them. This is what I hate about following fansubs that are new. I would have no idea of their quality and their consistency. The problem is also existing and established subs do not perform them. Argh this is frustrating... I am deprived of my lovely ladies of the anime world...

Head Knowledge

So you think reading books equate to you being smart and educated and stuff?
Pffft... reading just makes you exposed to more elements just like how watching tv makes you exposed to more elements. Just like how surfing the internet makes you exposed to more stuff. I used to think that people who read books were by default smart, wise, educated and all that jazz, the person being refined and supposedly better in terms of personality and maybe even deeper than normal.

I was dead wrong. I know people who supposedly read lots of books but are obnoxious and some even think that reading makes them super smart and shit so they deliberately force themselves to read books. After reading a few books they think they are all that. They tend to run their mouths off with their opinions believing that they are right even when they do not have compelling reasons.

I say to you now, the knowledge you gain means jack shit if you still are unable to interact with people appropriately. As long as there is no human touch. As long as there is no warmth, as long as there is no sincerity and pure caring. You are just another prick which knows too much for his/her own good and is absolutely useless to anybody.

Simple minded people though they are not as intelligent as most common people can be wiser and still be better souls compared to those who only use their gained knowledge for selfish intentions and vanity. You may be older than me, you may have had more and higher education than me, you may have more experiences in life than me. However you will be nothing to anyone if you treat them likewise. It is just like scoring straight A's in your exams but not being able to do any job right or let alone get a job at all. The next time you think you are better than somebody, think again how many more people out there are better than you. How would you like them to treat you. Nobody likes being treated like shit especially for no good reason.

The Obviously Ironic Thing Happened

I cut myself with the knife last night while trying to close it with one hand. Not a good idea with spring loaded stuff. Sliced the skin on the right side of my right hand's fore finger nail. Blood came out really fast and yeah it hurt like hell. Reason why it hurt more than wounds in other common places is because the fingers are extra sensitive for like you know, letting you know you burnt yourself when touching hot stuff.

While waiting for my finger to stop bleeding, ever pulse that was pumping blood in my finger not only caused pain, but an adrenaline rush which acted as form of pain suppression and even made me feel good.

Do not worry, I am not going to cut myself on a regular basis. Though I can take a certain amount of pain, I do not enjoy it.

A Productive Weekend

I decided to give up precious sleep time in the morning on Saturday to help my friend Shawn out in cleaning his apartment. Unfortunately I was not able to do much at that time save for collecting all chunks of debris and sweeping up whatever that was left of the place. There was no point in cleaning it totally because the place was not fully complete yet. The air conditioners were not installed as well as paint stains that have not been removed by the renovators.

We stopped for lunch at Uptown. Prior to that we went to a couple of shops to look for a few items for the new place. We went to this DIY shop and to my amusement, I saw a crossbow, a normal bow, daggers, hand axes and even a Japanese ceremonial knife on sale there. Being myself I could not help but comment about it to Shawn. The man who looked like the owner of the shop upon hearing me, proceeded to introduce me to a flip knife which was on clearance. I was laughing because I did not believe that he would actually try to sell me that. A weapon. Well I guess it supposedly was used for non-malignant purposes but yeah the first thing that comes to mind when I see that kind of knives were for stabbing people. It was really at a low price so I bought it.
I am having fun flipping it open and close, since its a spring loaded knife which is activated by a button and also has a safety lock on it.

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Aside from that day, I spent a great deal of time in World of Warcraft running around farming gold as well running some instances(dungeons) with a newly made friend in the game. Apparently he has night shifts where he's from so he's awake during my evenings which works out pretty well. He is very resourceful being able to find other players to form a group to run the instances. I also managed to get new armor pieces for 2 of my characters; new shoulder armor for my hunter and new head armor for my rogue.

Hopefully within two weeks time I will be able to amount enough gold to be able to by an epic flying mount for my paladin and speed around like mad. An epic flying mount in the game is like a luxurious sports car in real life. You do not really need one, but if you have one, it goes very fast and it just makes life easier in getting from point A to point B.

It Is Evil Enough

...when good people do nothing.
Ignorance is only blissful to that who is ignorant. The world still spins. Life still goes on as the ignorant remains stagnant.

If you think just because you live your life trying not to offend as many people as possible is leading a life of righteousness, you have no idea.

Sitting on the fence so as not to take/offend either sides shows that you are in fact choosing to be useless as well as disloyal to either sides eventually making you shunned by either. It is the same concept as the fact that eventhough you do not say anything in hopes of not telling a lie, but not wanting to tell the truth either, it is still regarded as dishonesty because the decision has been made not to speak the truth when the situation arisen.

If you are one not to wanting to get involved, people will choose not to involve you in the future as well.

Hell even when you die, you still will not be doing 'nothing'.

This Month is Crawling!

I do not know if it is just me, but I feel like this month seem to be going really slow. Also, I cannot wait for the end of this month for another pay cheque!

My cousin told me that Colin McRae passed away and I thought he was joking. Apparently it is real. My condolences to the rally driver who's name was used to produce various rally racing games.

I deserve to get beaten up badly for this but I just cannot keep it shut. Now I find the latest game with his name on it very ironic. Get smart a bit and find out yourselves.

http://motoring.reuters.co.uk/reuters/vocmain.jsp?lnk=101&id=2390

Electrifying!

So... This has happened to me and it has affected a lot of people many times as well.
Everytime when somebody comes in contact with me I shock them with static electricity. Last Tuesday while walking around 1 Utama with Marcus, I shocked him 3 times! And once on Afzal later that night.

This is not the first time where I experienced such repeated phenomenon. Sometimes I shock myself when I touch metal objects as well. Fear my powers!

Agonizing Addiction

Why oh why do I do this to myself!?

So there is this anime I am following called School Days. So far its about this guy who keeps seeing a girl on the train he rides to school everyday. He starts to have this infatuation from watching her everyday in the train. He tells his classmate about it and she decides to help him get her. Eventually the guy and the girl from the train end up together thanks to the guy's classmate. What they did not know is that the classmate also likes the guy.

So with his now girlfriend, he gets all horny and tries to do stuff with her which she is not really too comfortable or crazy about. He gets annoyed and disappointed. However she tries very hard to understand him and make him happy by forcing herself to allow him to do stuff to her. She also tries to be more affectionate with him hoping to do things with him like couples would. For some strange reason he does not like it and thinks its troublesome.

Over time he tends to realize that his classmate was better to be around with and they soon hit it off and start having an affair behind his girlfriend's back. Now another character in the background gradually emerges claiming that she likes the guy as well since they were from the same middle school. So far the guy's affair had been going on too far and sure enough he gets caught by his girlfriend without knowing. That is all for now and I am waiting for the new episodes to be available.

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She is everything a guy could want. The guy sees her everyday in the train and decides he wants her and his classmate friend helps him get her easily. He does all kind of shit to the girl and she lets him because she wants to make the relationship work out with him. She has been trying very hard to do lots of things to please him which just gets brushed aside. He does not even help her up or at least look worried when she trips and fall while they were walking together. He does not appreciate all these and has the nerve to cheat on her.

I feel so irritated by that guy's character. I feel like killing him. Good job for the creators of the anime in making animated character I genuinely hate. Every episode I watch, I feel sad for the girlfriend. You might be thinking, if its too much to take why not just stop watching altogether? That is the problem with me. Nobody how bad a story is to me, I have to finish it. It is my nature of having to finish something so that I have closure. I need closure! I am the type of person who needs to see things to the very end. A sense of completion is necessary for me. However I am not a masochist in a sense that I most likely might not rewatch the series again. I have some stored anime with very sad endings which I dare not watch again for fear of being saddened by them. Pathetic I am. The same applies to books I read as well.

Anime is my fantasy land! My form of escape from the everyday drudgeries of reality. It is my place to be happy with something that I know will never exist in the real world. Because the real world is full of shitty people!

Logitech Love

While surfing the web for ideas and inspiration on designs at work. I came across not one, not two... but three new Logitech products. I think at least one out of three of them have already been released but I doubt it would be available in Malaysia yet.

They are... *drum roll* the
Logitech G9 Laser Mouse
Logitech G15 Keyboard
Logitech G51 Speakers

Let us start with the mouse.


It is awesome! Why is it awesome? Because it has incorporated all the cool features of previous Logitech mice into a single product. Thank God I did not rush to buy the MX Revolution. Its main features I am going crazy over are the 'free scroll' function, the ability to add more weight to the mouse, its scroll wheel being able to 'scroll' horizontally and the feature of adding on a different type of grip. Apparently you can add/remove a 'grip' which adds to the width of the mouse which alleges more comfort. Removing it simply makes your mouse the slim/normal form for those people who dislike bulkiness.

Now on to the keyboard.


Well I am not sure why I was interested in the first place. The more I think about it, I realize it is not that much different from my current G15 v1. Firstly it does not have blue illumination anymore so boo. They also did away with the dial for controlling volume which I think was cool. They replaced it with just a volume up and down button respectively. Also it does not have a flip open LCD screen anymore, rather just a screen embedded on top of the keyboard. I guess they want it to be less bulky and more space conscious. I can totally give this a miss.

Finally the sounds!


Initially I do not prioritize sound quality. Or rather it was never high on my list. Until I got my X-Fi soundcard. Also being exposed to my dad's hifi stereo system. As hard as I try to adjust the settings for my X-Fi going through my old Logitech 6.1 speakers, there was just something not quite right. The speakers was just not adequate enough to provide the sound quality I desired. I have keen sense when it comes to details in graphics and sound. A factor to being able to play music by ear efficiently. Reading about the new upcoming G51 made me go "that will be what I am replacing my currents speakers with". Each of its satellite speakers seem to have a high and low sound transmitter as opposed to the previous generation speakers having only one transmitter, like mine. What really made me excited was the front middle speak being able to be mounted on the monitor like the new webcams that were made to clip onto flatscreen monitors. Woohoo! About time somebody thought of that. My current middle front speaker is designed to be placed either on top of a monitor with a wide surface or on the floor.

Why you may ask that I got this 6.1 in the first place? True story. While I was in Melbourne, I needed speakers for my computer there, so I went to a nearby store. I wanted to get a simple 2.1 set when I saw its price being quite ridiculously expensive. Then I saw this 6.1 that the store was trying to get rid of, which was 1/3 the price of a new 2.1. To me it sounded like a great deal. After a couple of years of experience only now I realize that you really do get what you pay for and more speakers do not necessarily mean better. However I needed speakers anyway because I blew up the speakers on my Sony mini hifi system right before I left for Australia. If I ever get my hands on these G51... I will give the 6.1 to my dad and hook it up for him to the dvd player or television. Of course he will repeat that my 6.1 is never a match for his stereo hifi system. Durh. However I use my speakers for other things than just listening to music. So you cannot really make comparisons like that. I do admit though when it comes to music sound quality, it still is somewhat unsatisfying. May the mouse and speakers be birthday and Christmas presents I get for myself!

[Images were linked from nordichwardware.com]